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Sunday, August 24, 2008

keep thinking abt emo things today.. the pain nv stop since a few days before decan papers start.. then plus somemore my back suddenly very pain on friday night.. cant even stand.. i duno wats happening to me.. i start to lose faith in myself..

nearly quarrel wif darling juz now coz i nv go see doc.. nv tell my parents abt my head.. dun want them to worry abt my head.. coz they already worrying abt my back.. i also dun want to go see doctor myself darling.. u noe how scared i am? no money and no time juz excuse.. i can get money anytime.. my papers going to be over soon.. i got time after tat.. but u noe how i feel?? i noe u worry abt me.. i'm having the problems.. i worry more than anyone does..

i'm not moving forward anymore.. i'm stuck.. i dun need anymore scoldings and lectures.. coz it wont help.. the more lectures i receive.. the more stubborn i am.. u noe me.. i noe myself.. i will go see doc.. will u go wif me?? do u hav time to go wif me??

feel like doing alot of things now.. cannot imagine wat will happen to me the next minute.. tats y i muz do those things i like asap.. and treasure all those ppl around me who add colours into my life.. darling.. when can we go to the beach and look at the stars whole night??

scribbled @ 4:51 AM