Sunday, August 24, 2008
keep thinking abt emo things today.. the pain nv stop since a few days before decan papers start.. then plus somemore my back suddenly very pain on friday night.. cant even stand.. i duno wats happening to me.. i start to lose faith in myself..
nearly quarrel wif darling juz now coz i nv go see doc.. nv tell my parents abt my head.. dun want them to worry abt my head.. coz they already worrying abt my back.. i also dun want to go see doctor myself darling.. u noe how scared i am? no money and no time juz excuse.. i can get money anytime.. my papers going to be over soon.. i got time after tat.. but u noe how i feel?? i noe u worry abt me.. i'm having the problems.. i worry more than anyone does..
i'm not moving forward anymore.. i'm stuck.. i dun need anymore scoldings and lectures.. coz it wont help.. the more lectures i receive.. the more stubborn i am.. u noe me.. i noe myself.. i will go see doc.. will u go wif me?? do u hav time to go wif me??
feel like doing alot of things now.. cannot imagine wat will happen to me the next minute.. tats y i muz do those things i like asap.. and treasure all those ppl around me who add colours into my life.. darling.. when can we go to the beach and look at the stars whole night??