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Thursday, September 04, 2008

haizz.. not i want to force you.. but really hav to marry a guy tat is in my religion.. i'm stuck in the middle now u noe?? ppl always say.. if u love me.. u will join my religion together wif me.. and i really hope u will.. and u noe how sad i am when u say u dun want to join??

i still rmb tat time u say u will join.. i'm so happy.. y cant it be like before??

haizz.. who can understand how i feel now?? i need a shoulder..

scribbled @ 8:19 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

keep thinking abt emo things today.. the pain nv stop since a few days before decan papers start.. then plus somemore my back suddenly very pain on friday night.. cant even stand.. i duno wats happening to me.. i start to lose faith in myself..

nearly quarrel wif darling juz now coz i nv go see doc.. nv tell my parents abt my head.. dun want them to worry abt my head.. coz they already worrying abt my back.. i also dun want to go see doctor myself darling.. u noe how scared i am? no money and no time juz excuse.. i can get money anytime.. my papers going to be over soon.. i got time after tat.. but u noe how i feel?? i noe u worry abt me.. i'm having the problems.. i worry more than anyone does..

i'm not moving forward anymore.. i'm stuck.. i dun need anymore scoldings and lectures.. coz it wont help.. the more lectures i receive.. the more stubborn i am.. u noe me.. i noe myself.. i will go see doc.. will u go wif me?? do u hav time to go wif me??

feel like doing alot of things now.. cannot imagine wat will happen to me the next minute.. tats y i muz do those things i like asap.. and treasure all those ppl around me who add colours into my life.. darling.. when can we go to the beach and look at the stars whole night??

scribbled @ 4:51 AM

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

sad now. darling keep giving me cold shoulders. tats how i feel. haizz. duno y also. m i tat irritating?? he still says he dun like the feeling. then he still let me feel tat.. haizz. duno wat he is thinking. or mayb its juz my fault.

scribbled @ 8:20 AM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Lost
so lost.. haizz.. i still like him?? or juz like his company?? i also duno.. he treat me real well.. better than my ex (latest one).. but he got gf liao.. this makes me remember of the song.. Chi Xin Jue Dui.. it goes like this..

Ming zhi dao rang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui..
Wo hai sha sha deng dao qi ji chu xian de na yi tian..
Zhi dao na yi tian.. Ni hui fa xian..
Zhen zhen ai ni de ren du zhi shou zhe shang bei..

(Obviously knows that you won't leave her,
but i still wait for u stupidly until that day comes,
on that day, you will realise
that the one who really loves you is suffering alone.)


haizz.. my translation not really good sia.. but juz roughly..

leaving for malaysia liao.. suppose its time for me to go there and relax.. hope tat i will hav fun wif them.. he will be there also sia..

didn't put the guy's name.. well.. oni tat person noes wat i m talking abt i suppose.. its been the same guy as my previous post.. cant write too clearly.. dun want others to noe.. haizz..

good bye guys..

scribbled @ 6:40 AM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Disappointed
cried last night.. really sad.. haizz.. after i noe wat he did.. i will not let the ring out of my sight liao.. though its my lucky charm when playing bball.. his gf is more important than his 10 years friend.. mayb to him i m not important at all.. or else he wont scold me.. i nv even say i lost the ring lor.. i m really disappointed.. i duno wat to say abt him.. guardian angel?? best budds?? best brother?? qing mei zhu ma?? heart breaker?? yeah.. mayb he is the heart breaker.. break my heart twice.. first.. when he break up wif him.. for some stupid reason.. second is last night.. then wat m i to him?? juz normal friend.. and nth much?? nvm.. i dun want to cry again..

scribbled @ 4:48 PM

Sunday, November 27, 2005

nany nany poo poo.. u cannot catch me.. haha..

scribbled @ 6:19 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

this is oni a testing blog... not my real blog...

scribbled @ 2:21 AM